I was also shocked when Robi got evicted. I wasn't able to watch the nomination night that week kasi eh. So if you watched it, enlighten me.
Now let's talk about the growing love teams inside the house. And I'm gonna start with the most controversial.
Nicole and Josef.
JOSEF naman, how could you?I cannot believe this. I cannot fucking believe
this.All I can say is WHAT THE ***. Seriously. I will not say mean things about
that girl here, I`ll just keep them to myself. But really, what the ***. Sooper
boy d mo Eli.I can`t believe this. No, I can`t believe YOU. You`re such a
disappointment. I knew that this Pbb thing would be a bad idea.And yes, I was
HAVE A BOYFRIEND
??AND MAYBE IT SLIPPED HIS MIND BUT HE HAS A GIRLFRIEND
TOO.What the ***. Putangina. Wala na. While watching that scene, I couldn`t help
but cry.Understand me, I am waiting. But I don`t exactly know if I`m waiting for
something. Yun pala wala na tapos mukha nalang akong *** dito.I don`t know how
I`m supposed to feel. Up until today, I was so sure that he was mine no matter
what happens inside Pbb. But now, I`m not sure about anything anymore.Yes, maybe
it`s the pain talking or the bitterness, but every word I say right now shows
how I`m really feeling. Because right now, I don`t know how I feel. Here I am
again, back at square one. I`m stuck in a rut and I have no idea how to get out
of it. Good luck to me sleeping tonight. No, good luck to me on getting past
this.I was okay with the whole Pbb thing, I really was. Well, duh. I`m working
my ass off just to promote Eli. AND TAKE NOTE: I`M NEVER NORMALLY LIKE THIS.
ONLY NOOOW. And this is how he repays me? :I am hurt. I am BEYOND hurt. Hurt is
an understatement. I am not being petty, believe me.I know Eli, I know pag may
dinidiskartehan siya. And we started off as best friends. AND NOW THEY`RE "BEST
FRIENDS"?? HOW THE *** AM I SUPPOSED TO FEEL?Now his words mean *** to me. They
really do. I let him join because I trusted him and I was sure that he loved me.
Now, I don`t know anymore. Well, fine. He may have my name on his arm, but
really, does that mean ANYTHING AT ALL now?I`m just frustrated,okay? I just want
to let this all out. I just want to vent. I just want to be alone and cry my
eyes out. I just want him back.PUTANGINA TALAGA.Pero to all my friends and to
all my new found friends (Eli`s fans.) :Thank you. Seriously, thank you. Your
comments and text messages cheered me up. But I`m still fucked up, but
nevertheless, they meant something. Sorry to those who texted tapos di ako
nagreply, I`m too torn up to reply. But sooper thank you. Sa lahat ng magandang
comments and sa lahat ng advices. Sa lahat din ng positive messages. I love you
all for that. But right now, I just need time to think and asked myself if this
is what I really want.Jesus Christ, help me. I don`t know what the hell I want
anymore. I don`t understand him. Usually, I can read his mind. But now, malabo
na eh. Lahat malabo na.*** THIS LIFE.I thought he`d be different. UGHHHH. I
don`t want to tell Peter in the end na, "sana nakinig nalang ako sayo." I WANT
TO BELIEVE THAT HE`S DIFFERENT. I DO. BUT NOW, THAT`S NEXT TO IMPOSSIBLE. I am
broken right now. And I need to straighten my thoughts because really, this is
unacceptable to me. It really is. I may or may not eat my words after a day or
two, but right now, THIS is how I feel. I FEEL SHITTY. And I have every right to
throw a *** fit right now cause I hate what I`m seeing. And I hate the way I`m
feeling.And Eli, why can`t I read your mind?WHYYYY?I have a million questions
with no answers. I want to shoot myself in the head cause I`ll be up all night
asking myself, WHY.You know I love you. Oh God, at least I THINK you know
that.This is bullshit. It really is.But after all that`s been said and done, you
know you`ll always be my number one. :(I just want to escape reality. Take me
away, please? :(
Look, I have nothing against these two. I mean, it's their life. But I just hope that they realize that they're hurting people who love them outside.
That's why if any of you bloggers out there are planning to enter the house next year, leave all your commitments outside of the house. Because you'll never know when you'll fall in love.