Friday, April 25, 2008Do you guys believe in fate? Yeah, the whole if-we're-meant-to-be-love-will-find-a-way thing? Haha. :) Well, I do. I don't call myself a hopeless romantic for nothing, ya know.
So anyway. I do believe everyone's got their own special person out there.. waiting. That right there is the key here. Waiting for the right time to find that person. Waiting for yourself to be ready and to be mature enough to face all the consequences of your actions. And of course, waiting to love another individual more than yourself. Others think it's an easy task. If you do, then you're fooled. Loving someone takes a lot of patience and commitment. Cause you're not just looking after yourself this time. You're taking care of your "other half" too. You're gonna have to consider everything he or she likes. And you can't make decisions on your own anymore. Now, it's about you two.
I know I'm not in a position to give advices. Hell, I've been in 3 relationships and I'm in my 4th one now. And those 3 different guys that I've been with taught me a lot of things. I'm gonna enumerate. :)
- EX #1 - He taught me how to be patient. He's my first boyfriend and he cheated on me. I was still too immature that time. Well duh, I was only 14. I entered in a relationship without knowing the person completely. And that was MY mistake. The good thing is that I learned from it and because of that experience, he changed completely. Now we're best friends. :)
- EX #2 - This relationship taught me not to give into everything your boyfriend says. Okaaaay. I'm totally gonna expose this already. He uuuh, asked me to have sex with him. DON'T REACT. I know what you guys are gonna say. Anyway, I never ever gave in to that request. I remember, he'd tell me that if I really loved him, I'd do that. And he told me that he gave me everything I wanted (even if I didn't ask for the things he gave me) pero bakit daw yun LANG di ko mabigay. Sheesh. Some guys are such dicks you know. So there. I broke up with him.
- EX #3 - I learned that in every relationship, you'll have to swallow your pride once in a while for the one you love. I admit, I was really ma-pride before. Now, I've changed. Thanks to him.
And like I said, I'm in my 4th relationship right now. Well, so far, so GOOD. Actually it's more than good. It's great. He's really amazing, I can't even find the right words to tell you why. He's the only guy that I can see when I wake up 20 years from now, sleeping beside me. He's the one I can picture standing at the end of the church waiting for me. He's my EVERYTHING. God. He makes me so happy! Sorry if I'm getting really mushy right now. I'm just really overwhelmed by my emotions right now.
So to end this entry, I'd like to say this...
I love you Carlo.
10:38 PM
